I lay in my bed, my covers pulled up tight around my neck, trying to shut out the world. I sighed, my depression suffocating me as I tried to think of a way out. My thoughts raced, my heart raced and all I could do was cry. I had been in this state of despair for months, ever since my girlfriend of three years had broken up with me. I had been unable to work, unable to sleep and unable to shake this deep, chronic depression that had become my life.
I had tried to get help, but my attempts had been in vain. I had tried counseling and different medications, but nothing seemed to work. Every day, I spun further and further into a black, abyss-like fog that I couldn’t seem to escape. I was losing my mind, and I could feel it happening.
The people around me noticed how much I had changed, how depressed I had become, and all they could do was watch helplessly as I descended further and further into my own personal hell. My family, my friends, they all tried to help in whatever way they could, but I was too deep in my own head to see past my own depression.
I lay there in my bed, trying to make sense of my life, when suddenly the door opened. I was surprised to see my ex-girlfriend standing there, her eyes brimming with tears. She told me how sorry she was, how she had thought the breakup would be for the best. She had seen how much I had changed, how different I had become, and she had thought she was doing the right thing.
I could tell she still cared, and as I looked into her eyes, I knew things could be different. I could start to get better, I could begin to heal, and maybe, just maybe, I could climb out of this seemingly never-ending pit of despair. I reached for her hand, and we sat in silence for what seemed like hours, my depression slowly fading into the background.
But then, just as suddenly as she had arrived, she was gone. I sat alone in my room, my depression surging back to the forefront. I felt lost and broken and completely alone.
The darkness consumed me again and I was forever entrapped in its arms. There was no escape, no light, no hope. I had been defeated by my chronic depression, and I was too weak to fight it anymore.
Everything was lost and I was left to suffer in silence.